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'He could see me', Mel B says she prayed to God during cocaine use

Sun 18 Nov 2018
By Alex Williams

Mel B has revealed how she would say sorry to God and ask for His help amid a battle with cocaine use during her stint as a judge on The X Factor.

A member of pop group the Spice Girls, she says she took the Class A drug up to six times a day to help her cope on the hit ITV show.

In extracts of her new autobiography published in The Sun on Sunday, she wrote: "Then I would pray, 'God, I'm sorry for taking cocaine but, please God, help me get through this day'.


"It numbed my pain. It lifted me up enough to be ready to fire on all cylinders and forget about everything but the show.

"I told myself God would understand and forgive me because he could see through all the glitter and the cr*p.

"He could see me. The mess. And the cocaine could help that mess. Just for now."


Mel B says the substance never affected her performance on The X Factor, nor did she ever take it during shows.

In her book, Brutally Honest, the 43-year-old mother said she used cocaine as a "quick fix" during her turbulent marriage to Stephen Belafonte. They officially divorced in August this year.

Mel B, whose real name is Melanie Brown, also wrote about an unsuccessful bid to take her own life in December 2014.

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Earlier this month, the Spice Girls (pictured) announced a UK stadium tour without Victoria Beckham.

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