Be Still Know
Jeremiah 2:2b NLT
‘How you loved me and followed me even through the barren wilderness.’
Memory is an interesting faculty. I observe how my mum, about to turn 91, loves to revisit her memories. Memories of her childhood, years spent raising her children, places she has visited and recalls with pleasure. She also struggles with recalling names and times that give a context to these memories, and this lack of data frustrates her.
As I observe Mum, I’ve discovered I live far more in the present than in either the past or the future. In fact, my memory of the past is probably worse than Mum’s. She recounts stories that I don’t recognise, and I’ve simply deleted the file from my brain. Yet, memory is important in recalling my responses to God over the years; the enthusiastic way I committed my life and expended every joule of energy in serving God.
Life interrupted that flow. I was wounded by my interactions with others, felt taken advantage of, and failed to speak up in expressing my own aspirations and disappointments. Slowly my heart grew calluses, hardened and I began to overthink the nature of my discipleship. I was consumed more with my own past and present hurts than with my love for God.
My faith, once simply a response to God’s loving invitation, was now more a strategy for life and, as a Christian worker, for employment and financial reward. God hasn’t come to institute a religious system, but to offer me, and you, forever friendship, something I’d lost sight of along the way.
Where once I’d walked by faith, in a garden that was seeded and planted by God’s provision, I now occupied a piece of territory where I managed the planting, and built fences to keep all trespassers out. I was living in perpetual forgetfulness and was in urgent need of renewing both my vows and my devotion to friendship with God.
QUESTION: To what extent has life’s realities overtaken you and changed your relationship with God?
PRAYER: Lord, help me not to forget your mercies, and renew my love again for you.