Be Still Know
Jeremiah 17:8b NLT
‘Such trees are not bothered by the heat or worried by long months of drought. Their leaves stay green, and they never stop producing fruit.’
Now that Mum has been with us just over a year, we have come to identify differences in approach between us. These are nothing significant, yet if not acknowledged can produce tension between us. When it comes to the round of daily living, I am fairly laissez-faire, while Mum has more anxiety. Hence, she may ask for me to make an appointment with the optician or replace her watch battery, and this will be done but not within the hour. Mum then either reminds me consistently, which carries the potential of my reacting, or approaches Jayne to get her to remind me, a responsibility she refuses to accept.
Now I have learned to keep Mum up to speed with my progress. For her watch battery I explained that I had to locate a new shop, for since moving I haven’t thought about sourcing such a battery, not least because I don’t wear a watch. Mum has begun to recognise that constant badgering is ineffective and now chooses to refrain from her former ‘drip, drip’ approach.
Whether such anxiety to conclude tasks is a part of Mum’s make-up or is simply another factor in ageing, I don’t really know. However, I have been made acutely aware of just how distressing anxiety can be. I have been working on my own anxiety with God as a direct result. My anxiety is usually around fear about finance, both having sufficient funds and in managing my accounts. So on the one hand I trust in God, yet would always prefer to rely on sufficient financial reserves rather than wondering if my month will stretch further than my bank account.
As I’ve talked with God about this, I have responded. I shredded my credit cards some time ago, and will purchase only from existing funds. I now live with this system by the grace of God, and I am hoping that my perennial fear of a future drought of whatever type is safely under God’s control. So I live at ease with myself, my circumstances and my God.
QUESTION: How are you in addressing your perennial fears and anxieties?
PRAYER: Lord Jesus, you commanded us not to worry about tomorrow, for that alone is in your hands.