Be Still Know
Psalm 101:2 (NLT)
‘I will be careful to live a blameless life – when will you come to help me? I will lead a life of integrity in my own home.’
I work as a trainer in communications. As a trainer I introduce people to the nature of competency. Each of us starts any new discipline in a state of unconscious incompetence; we just don’t know what we don’t know and so are relaxed about what lies ahead of us. As I agreed to follow Jesus, I assumed all would be straightforward. I had no understanding of what pursuing God would mean.
The stages lead through conscious incompetence, where I realise how little I know, to conscious competence, where every step of obedience is an effort of the will. I dream of reaching the state of unconscious competence, yet recognise this may lie beyond my mortal years.
So initially my enthusiasm, marked by fatal flaws in character, is supported by those teaching me the very basics of Christian discipleship. There is much love and encouragement. My misdeeds are acknowledged yet never allowed to prevent me from wrestling with the realities of following Christ.
As I slowly mature, I show up more like a polished Christian, well able to disguise my flaws and perhaps much better versed in the art of deviation by which I naturally throw people off the scent of my misdeeds. As such my performance is approved and I am left much more to my own devices, adding my voice to the many that assume I am perfectly capable of pursuing God on my own.
Of course those emerging from training are expected to submit themselves to supervision and a regular review of their practice by someone experienced and capable. However most of us resist challenge and rebuke. We prefer to fly solo. Yet, until we accept input from others we cannot attain a richer, fuller life in Christ.
QUESTION: Reflect on your journey from unconscious incompetence towards conscious competence. Where have you resisted God? Where do you still fight?
PRAYER: Lord, I submit myself to your instruction and guidance.