Be Still Know
Psalm 69:2 NLT
Deeper and deeper I sink into the mire; I can’t find a foothold. I am in deep water, and the floods overwhelm me.
I remember following Katey’s initial diagnosis with MS, that we both felt overwhelmed. Our emotions were all over the place, our minds played out myriad scenarios, all largely based upon ignorance and fear, our concentration levels reduced to virtually zero. When we face what appears an impossible challenge, something we don’t begin to understand, we begin to implode. Life becomes a matter of moment to moment survival. Our natural defence systems kick in – for me, fight (yet not knowing what I was fighting) and for Katey, flight (but with nowhere to flee to).
With the psalmist we felt that we were in the mire, a landscape that sapped our strength and across which we made little progress. We all too swiftly became stuck in the mud, felt out of our depth, and completely lost our foothold on life. We were lost and stressed beyond belief. Every part of our Christian faith appeared hollow and of no value, given current circumstances.
It took every ounce of willpower to call out to God, but I’m pleased to say we did. It was instinctive, more than faith-filled, and a cry for help that didn’t feel like it had been heard. Yet when life takes a turn against you, or so it feels, when daunted, overwhelmed, angry and in shock, it is essential we utter that instinctive cry for help to God. Even if we want to blame God for our predicament, it is valuable to call his name aloud, for God alone can bring us from the panic of drowning to the safety of the solid shoreline.
As a child, I built with sand, as an adult I built with brick. There are no remains of my expansive sandcastles, yet those features built of brick stand as a testimony to hard graft and commitment. So it is with our faith decisions in God.
QUESTION: Have you ever felt adrift or all at sea in life?
PRAYER: Jesus, you said all who hear your words and obey would be as on solid rock. Help me find solid ground in you.