Be Still Know
Psalm 33:18-19 NLT
‘But the Lord watches over those who fear him, those who rely on his unfailing love. He rescues them from death and keeps them alive in times of famine.’
It’s amazing just how many significant national events have been misreported. Cover-ups by those I was brought up to respect and trust are disappointing at best, criminal at worst. Yet, we recognise the instinct that seeks to disguise those stories that we would rather were never in the public domain. The most impactful discovery in my early Christian years was that God required truth-telling. I’d made an art out of lying and deception in my teen years. Throughout school I lived with constant fear I might be rumbled and be forced to face the consequences of my web of lies.
The impact upon my adult behaviour was a refusal to take responsibility for my share in anything that went wrong. I didn’t want to face up to what I assumed would be the ‘music’. Yet, I’ve now discovered the power of confession and the reconciliation that follows.
Once we confess all, we recognise our total dependence upon God. We recognise his patient, constant gaze is not one of nitpicking judgement of our life or behaviour; rather, it is the gaze of a loving benefactor.
Such benefits include the reality that God will sustain us in each and every circumstance we encounter. The life of lies and half-truths I designed around myself I assumed was for my protection. I believed I was acting in my best self-interest. Yet, over years I had to unlearn a behaviour that placed me at its centre and then discover a loving God who understood me, complexities and all, and also accepted me without complaint. Learning to love again, knowing God’s loving gaze was upon me, and believing God had my best interests at heart in every circumstance continues to be the school of faith I belong to. My trust comes and goes in waves. Yet, God’s love is poured out consistently and constantly.
QUESTION: Do you find you wear masks as you journey through life?
PRAYER: Faithful Father, thank you for your grace that frees me from the need to pretend.