Be Still Know
Psalm 62:8 NLT
‘O my people, trust in him at all times. Pour out your heart to him, for God is our refuge.’
Reading about the Desert Fathers I discovered that tears were acknowledged as the purest prayers one might offer to God. We live in a world that is increasingly suspicious of tears. Media dominates our lives to such an extent that we are afraid that tears may be more crocodile than sincere.
I certainly found it hard when tears began to force their way from my eyes and down my cheeks. I was initially embarrassed and discreetly wiped them away or indicated my eyes were watering accompanied by an elaborate display of removing an eyelash. Initially such tears were a reflection of my own frustration, pain and self-pity. However, slowly they reflected the reality of the deep sadness that was my constant companion caring for Katey.
Eventually, unable to express my prayer through words, I poured out my heart to God through tears. This became my most frequent language when communicating with the Divine. Tears then accompanied me. Standing in worship with arms raised I would be aware of rivulets flowing down my cheeks. I soon stopped worrying about what others might assume and allowed my very being to make its intercession before God. An appeal that lay well beyond vocabulary, the spirit praying as the spirit knew best.
Then one day I was unexpectedly hijacked by my tears. Travelling alone through a town where Katey and I had established some great memories, I had to pull over to the side of the road and park, overwhelmed with emotion, and just sobbed, sitting at the wheel. It was as alarming as it was unexpected, yet slowly I became accustomed to such incidents when returning to significant Mike and Katey locations.
As I poured out my heart, the embrace of God gathered me in and provided a place of refuge. A place where I knew I was safe and only need express myself through raw emotion. God heard the cry of anguish and interpreted the prayer from the core of my being with never a need for me to add any form of verbal definition.
QUESTION: Do you see tears as an enemy or a friend?
PRAYER: Lord, soften my heart that I would not miss the brokenness in others and the pain in the world around me today.