Be Still Know
John 6:31 NLT
After all, our ancestors ate manna while they journeyed through the wilderness! The Scriptures say, ‘Moses gave them bread from heaven to eat.’
Navigating our MS journey over 18 years, we experienced a slow dawning of appreciation of God’s involvement with us. We’d entered marriage with a missional sense of purpose. We led missions, and supported countless people struggling with life. We assumed this was our ‘ministry’ and felt we were rather good at all we did. We co-authored books on our popular Spring Harvest seminars and in every way felt we were high achievers in God’s school of faithful disciples.
Sadly, we had much unlearning to do. We also had some apologising to do to God and to a world to which we’d so flippantly plied our missional trade. We were in so many ways the orchestraters of our own ministry, praying regularly that God might bless all that we chose to do on his behalf and in his name. It all appears so arrogant with the benefit of hindsight.
We reflected upon Jesus’ words to the crowd pointing out that Moses may have spoken of the miracle of the manna in the wilderness, yet God was its supplier. I wonder, did a messianic complex ever affect Moses? Undoubtedly we most certainly thought of ourselves as the Lord’s anointed!
Anointed we may have been, for God had called us and made us his own, yet we were also constrained both by our immediate circumstances and a self-directed ministry that sought God’s blessing yet not God’s direction. And we loved the affirmation of the crowd. I often describe myself as a recovering Church leader, only ever one platform away from disaster!
While we remained focused upon the MS and pleaded with God to heal as he had healed us physically on other occasions, we became becalmed within the limits of our own understanding of God’s ways and consumed with our own narrow understanding. Slowly, God opened our eyes to discover his presence in the very heat of our battle, the heart of our agony. God had no intention of delivering us from this desert, rather to sustain us within it.
QUESTION: Where is your focus – is it upon your acts of service, or upon God?
PRAYER: Lord, help me live my life as if you were essential to it and not an accessory to it.