Be Still Know
Psalm 25:3 (NLT)
‘No one who trusts in you will ever be disgraced, but disgrace comes to those who try to deceive others.’
Much of my friendship with God has been built upon my desire to avoid pain and difficulty. Nothing wrong with this, it’s human and sensible. There is in our relationship with God this constant cry for deliverance from our enemies, be they sickness, economic woes, or broken relationships. Sadly this understandable desire can become transactional in nature, and if I feel God has failed in his side of the bargain, I punish God by ditching him.
Some weeks ago Mum announced she wanted to explore getting hearing aids, at the suggestion of a neighbour. Now we had only recently moved and given away a very expensive pair of hearing aids mum had purchased some eight years previously. She soon stopped wearing them we thought because her friends at the lunch club she attended and a very dear neighbour told her hearing aids were useless. Mum was adamant she wasn’t going to ever use them again no matter how we tried to convince her.
I challenged her and after we had a ‘hearty’ exchange of opinions, mum disclosed that due to her arthritis, which had only grown more severe, she found placing them in her ears and working the minute controls impossibility. With fresh information we agreed to explore finding something that might both provide her with enhanced hearing without compromising her arthritic arms.
I realised my assumptions were wrong and therefore the frustration I expressed was misplaced. Mum too, I hope, came to accept the limitations age placed upon her and we identified a road we might accompany each other along with grace.
When we start to shout at God for failing to deliver us, it might have more to do with our fractured mortality and God’s overall plan than we choose to see. It may have less to do with failing us than making us women and men of God whose witness lights up our immediate world and provides us with fresh insight into our own frailty and fracture. This is all part of maturing.
QUESTION: Are there situations you grieve over where you believe God’s failed you? Have you withdrawn from God?
PRAYER: Patient Father, forgive me for those times I have believed you have failed me. Open my eyes to see your hand at work in my life.