Be Still Know
Psalm 27:8 NLT
My heart has heard you say, “Come and talk with me.” And my heart responds, “Lord, I am coming.”
Accompanying Katey on her experience of MS taught us both that we could no longer take life for granted. The disease was so much more than the medical prognosis or the textbook descriptions we read online. Slowly and surely it established a hold upon Katey’s life and intruded into our marriage. Katey learned that she had to fight to hold onto her personhood before this slow incoming tide that threatened to take her very essence long before it took her life.
I too discovered I had to press well beyond the superficial incursions of this wasting disease to retain hold of the woman I had fallen in love with and married. I had to see beyond the disfigurements of MS and seek the wonderful person I loved. It was a life lesson and one that plays out most obviously in our walk with God.
Where I started as a Christian; obediently praying a series of requests to God, was a long way from where I finished. Prayer was no longer about me making my requests known to God; it was seeking God in the pressures and pain of living life. Prayer is in fact about being present with God. When I am with the one I love, I may have a request or two, yet they occupy only a small part of our time together. We share story, enjoy each other’s company, experience being with each other. So it is with prayer. We learn to be present with God and see beyond the immediacy of life’s demands.
For years after she died, the only images I carried in my head were those of Katey physically bound by MS. Yet, in her last months as I sat with her, as I held her hand and stroked her cheek, I was able to see beyond the harsh reality of her physicality and encountered the reality of the women I had first met and courted. I was able to be present with the Katey who carried God’s seed and the eternal imprint of God’s love.
QUESTION: How do you approach prayer? Is it a seeking after God to enter and enjoy his presence?
PRAYER: Lord, may I come to you to enjoy who you are and not simply for what I think you can do for me.