Be Still Know
Colossians 3:7 NLT
‘You used to do these things when your life was still part of this world.’
It’s all very well establishing, as St Paul does, that we’re naturally driven by our basic instincts, that give birth to our passions, which in turn give voice to our words. But how does this help? I have experienced the bleaker side of this. Through the difficult, I might say darker days, of companioning Katey with her MS, I can recall wondering why it was I awoke feeling so low, blue and often angry. I recalled as a distant dream waking as a child, tightly tucked up in my bed, sheets and blankets back then, with a sense of warmth within, excitement at the day that lay ahead and feeling a rising sense of positive adventure. Now, I battled with the thought of getting up; my mind in rebellion against the caring responsibilities that awaited me. These so easily fuelled by feelings of self-pity.
My actions ensured I could only find myself isolated and alone. Indeed, I think the damage I inflicted upon myself and the many friendships I then enjoyed was responsible for breaking those relationships, the majority of which lie shattered in my wake.
So I learned, very slowly, with much complaining, that I was the master of my own mood music. I could choose to set my mind on things above or be driven by every wind of change that life threw at me. Today when I awake, I experience that first thought that itself can determine my mood for the day. I may feel generally blue, recall with an inner sigh a conversation I would rather forget, react to some task I am responsible for. I acknowledge the mood music from within and only then approach God. ‘This is how I am today, Lord, and it’s not how I choose to be.’ As an adult, at the invitation of the Holy Spirit, I choose to frame my day in terms that reflect my love of God ahead of my overarching internal mood music. I live God’s way, often in spite of myself. This is the way of walking with God while living in uncompromising and challenging days.
QUESTION: How do you greet the day? Is your mood determined by that first thought?
PRAYER: Lord, your mercies are fresh and new every morning. Help me to remember that.